What's hapening?

what is this?
is it a dream?
is this a sick joke?
what is this feeling in my chest?
it feels like a drum
no, not 1, more
a multitude of drums, a symphany od thumps and beats
as if a drumline 10,000 strong residing behind my ribs were making a masterpeice

is this my heart?
i have a heart?
thought i lost it
long ago
when i was still so young
and nieve
and thought that i could stay inocent in this god-forsaken world

but i guess it's my heart
it's in the right spot as far as i know
and it seems like it's what ppl say it is

why is it beating now?
what's changed in my life to make me feel someting
anything
when i've been dead for so long?
i'm not sure

i feel strange
i feel things i've never felt b4
i'm warm now
and cold
and everything at once
i'm happy when nothign is right there to make me so
what's happening to me?

is this love maybe?
that elusive emotion that's avoided me for so long?

i cant b sure
i've never felt it b4
but i feel this strangness more when i talk to her
i feel like i can fly if i just willed it so
and i have goals in my life now
this has never happened prior to now

even more amazing... im writing again
and not of hatred and sorrow like i have in the past
she makes me combat myself

i wish to b like a ninja
no past
no future
just there
then not
but i want to shout from the mountains about her
about her hair of gold
and a voice that makes the angels cry out in envy
about how all i want to do is make her happy
and carry every burdon she'll ever know

i always thought love was a myth
a legend
but i guess every legend has a bit of truth to it
and here's the truth i think i know

i dont know what's happening
but i have a guess
love

my heart has been brought back form it's self-exile
and it beats for one person
so thanks for making me feel again

i may not know what this is
but i like it
so until life pries whatever this is from my cold clenched hands
i'll gladly take whats happening